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A Confession
by Michael Cox
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Excerpted from The Meaning of the Night, copyright (c) 2006 by Michael Cox. Reproduced with permission of the publisher, W.W.Norton and Company. All rights reserved
I rebuked her gently for her scruples, telling her that it was folly – and
worse – to believe that we do not merit our good fortune, especially if it
is ours by right. She kissed me and pulled me close; but I felt suddenly
abandoned and alone. For was I not also an heir, and to a far greater
kingdom than hers? Yet my inheritance had been taken from me, and could
never now be reclaimed. This was hard enough to bear; but, through a
considered act of betrayal, I had sustained an even greater loss, which had
left me bereft of all hope of recovery. It is trite to speak of a broken
heart. Hearts are not broken; they continue to beat, the blood still
courses, even in the bitter after-days of betrayal. But something is broken
when pain beyond words is suffered; some connection that formerly existed
with light and hope and bright mornings is severed, and can never be
restored.
I longed to throw off the habit of deceit, and this smiling mask of
carelessness I wore to conceal the rage that foamed and boiled beneath. But
I could not tell Bella the truth about myself, or why I had been driven to
kill a stranger that night in Cain-court. For she had been the one sweet
constant in my life through a storm of trouble and danger of which she had
been unaware; and she, too, had been betrayed, though she did not know it. I
had already lost her. Yet I could not let her go – not quite yet – nor
confess to her what I am now confessing to you, my unknown reader.
But one person knows what I cannot tell Bella. And soon he will also come to
know how resourceful I can be.
[1] [An introduction to a treatise or discourse. Ed.]
[2] [A well-known fish and sea-food eating-place in the Haymarket. Ed.]
[3] [Nathaniel Wanley (1634–80). The book was first published in 1678. The
subtitle reads: ‘A general history of man: In six books. Wherein by many
thousands of examples is shewed what man hath been from the first ages of
the world to these times … Collected from the writings of the most approved
historians, philosophers, physicians, philologists and others.’ Ed.]
[4] [Henry Colburn (d. 1855), the publisher and founder of the Literary
Gazette. Ed.]
[5] [The French orientalist Antoine Galland (1646–1715) made the first
Western translation of The Thousand and One Nights, published in twelve
volumes between 1704 and 1717 as Les Mille et une Nuits. It was a great
success and was followed by several other European translations, including
the first English rendering of Galland’s text, published anonymously 1706–8
and known as the ‘Grub Street version’. This is the version referred to by
the narrator. The translation was both defective and dull, but it inspired
successive generations of English readers up to and including the Romantic
poets. Ed.]
[6] [Waterloo Bridge was known as the ‘Bridge of Sighs’ because of the
number of suicides who had leaped to their deaths from it. Ed.]
[7] [From John Donne, ‘Elegie XIX: To his Mistris Going to Bed’. Ed.]
[8] [Boodle’s, a gentleman’s club of a semi-political character at 28 St
James’s Street; White’s (originally White’s Chocolate House, established
towards the end of the seventeenth century), was another celebrated
club-house at 37 and 38 St James’s Street. Ed.]
[9] [An adjective carrying the meaning of licentious or lewd, deriving from
Cyprus, an island famed for the worship of Aphrodite. Ed.]
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