(4/13/2025)
This book is about Emily and her high school best friend turned lover, Gen. They ended up attending different colleges after high school, then breaking up over a misunderstanding shortly after, but Emily has never truly forgotten Gen. It's also about Emily's marriage to a man named Jack.
Jack comes from a wealthy family and has a sophistication that intrigues Emily, and when they start dating, Jack goes out of his way to impress Emily, showering her with money and attention, and after six months, he proposes. Even before the wedding, there are red flags, warning bells of Jack's over sensitivity and reaction to anything Emily says or does that is remotely critical but Emily manages to convince herself all is well.
They marry and things are mostly good for a while, but over time, Jack slowly but intentionally isolates Emily from her friends and family, and Emily finds herself constantly having to anticipate what might spark Jack's often explosive anger. Two children later, the situation has evolved into an abusive marriage but Emily seemed oblivious, and always second guessing herself. Maybe she wasn't trying hard enough. It was hard to find sympathy for her by this point and I found myself really frustrated with her,
Overall, I liked the story, but more than once I felt the dialogue between Emily and her children seemed…not motherly is the best I can come up with…one example is when she tells her six year old he's a hypocrite. I enjoyed the relationship between Emily and Gen, but there were too many miscommunications and assumptions it made the story drag for me. By the time I reached the 350th page, I was glad to finish.